Raquel

Promiscuous
Sinful and Dishonest
Hurt and angry
Loved and hated

But

No matter what
She was that special person

She was the one

To do "it" first
To make me laugh
To make me cry
To make me smile

And 

To make me believe

To believe in fun
Love
Friends
And most of all 
To believe in myself

The things that I despise the most in that
I thought I had all the problems:
Boys, family, school, friends, ME.

Then she was gone
My friend and foe
Best friend and enemy

No matter what they meant
She was my idle
Even for all the bad she did in her life
She was the only person I really looked up too.

Now... she is gone

But that's not it
She had the problems
She was hurting
Inside and out
You would have never realized it
She was so full of energy and excitement
So WHY?

I don't know

That was her little secret

Drug addict
Suicidal
Pain

Those were them...
Secrets.

When I saw her come off that bus
I knew right then 
Something was wrong...

Her face
Full of horror
Stumbling foot over foot
Like a drunken sailor.

What was wrong?
Drugs?
What?
Abilene?
Rachel?

Oh my god... she didn't

Nope she did
And 
Now she is gone.
I will always love her for her good
Not her bad.
And she will always be my favorite...
I love you Rachel.