April 5, 1984

To the future, To anyone:
    This morning I awoke to the most horrid sound you could ever hear. The screeching of my telescreen then waking to the shrill voice of the slave driving workout master.  My bones ached with stiffness and a feeling of brittleness, I could not touch my toes so the workout master made me try harder with unbearable pain I touched my toes but doing so started a bad coughing fit and I felt and thought as if I was going to fall over and die right there.  This mornings workout was some what harder for me than other mornings, for the night before I was unable to sleep through the loud sounds of bombing coming from my telescreen.  The workout now over I stand there in my thin faded boxers, sweaty, out of breath and tired.  Getting to work would be no easy task.
    Walking down the desolate streets covered in ash and rubbish, the wind picking up dirt making small twisters close to the ash covered ground.  No one to be seen, scurrying along the streets to the ministry of truth passing by shoddy buildings covered with boards and posters of Big Brother.  There are four major parts of our government the Ministry of Truth, Ministry of Piece, Ministry of Plenty, and the Ministry of Love.  The ministry is of love most protected, 2 miles of barbed wire, tanks, and troops guard it all the time.
    At work my and everyone else's cubicles consisted of a small telescreen, a speakright, vacuum tubes and a dark black pipe that leads to the furnace (that's where waste paper goes). When I arrived at my cubicle there were already three tasks for me. Two were as easy as eating soup with a spoon, but the third was harder and would take some serious time and concentration (I put this aside for last). The first two tasks were edits to the Newspeak on a couple of generic ads done quickly I now moved on to my third and final task.  This third task was to rewrite an unjust article that doesn't comply with Big Brothers point of view or general interests or even the history provided by him.  I enjoyed rewriting this article making a story about a young man that created a lot of revolutionary weapons to help Oceania in its battle for piece.  Chairs are moving by my cubicle by the time I finished with the article, this must mean it almost time for the two minute hate.
    Today's hate was different from other days the  atmosphere of the crowd was different somehow more aggressive more intense.  The hate started a picture of  Goldstein the great traitor was flashed up on the humungous telescreen the picture became transparent and showed soldiers fighting children being burned alive and soldiers marching out of the screen submachine guns drawn and firing.  The crowd went ballistic shouting coward, traitor, and even bastard.  The hate ended, the mass crossed their arms in the Ingsoc sign and started chanting B-B, B-B, B-B repeatedly for another two minutes getting louder and louder.
    I slip into the door of my housing building fast but not fast enough to keep the dust from following me in.  The lift was out again as it was on most occasions so I had to use the stairs, but for me this was torture my Varicose ulcer was flaring up and the itching was unbearable.  Once at the top of the stairs I walk to my hole in the wall and start writing in my diary which you are reading.
    I have a recurring dream where I am in a lush field with my mother and sister.  I miss my mother and my sister I am extremely lonely (which might be why I am writing in this diary).  My mother died for me when I was a young boy I thank her for every moment I am alive (which might not be too long).  what was that noise

Down With Big Brother!!
Down With Big Brother!!
Down With Big Brother!!
Down With Big Brother!!
Down With Big Brother!!
Down With Big Brother!!
Down With Big Brother!!

    My neighbor is calling for me, she must need my assistance so I close with this:

    I don't know why I am writing in this book, for the past or the future or maybe for entertainment to keep me from being lonely.  But I do know that if I get caught then I will get vaporized and this book will be burned so if I never get to write in this again I would like to say "don't repeat the same mistakes we made be free and live life to its fullest"

Big Brother Is Watching You!

Big Brother Is Watching You!

                                                                                                           

                                                                                                         Winston Smith

 


Big Brother Is Watching You!